I am starting 2024 with absolutely no part of me seeking anymore. I feel completely at peace, deeply content with who I am, with my life and at home within my place in the Universe. All the pieces have come together and now it's time for me to serve and really focus on my work again.

20 years ago I was on my kitchen floor considering suicide. I had just been diagnosed with Hashimoto's Disease and had hit rock bottom, physically and emotionally.

My only strategy up until that point had been to suppress my emotions. Stuff them down through food or through other addictions and to live from my mind, anywhere except within my own body as I had so much pain in there and did not know what to do with it all.

I felt alone, unloved and seperate.

It was either end my life or heal.

I chose to heal and that sent me on a long and painful journey that would lead me eventually home to my Soul and back to God.

The first ten years of that journey were spent seeking. I wanted to know how to be happy and how to heal my body.

I studied:

NLP
Timeline Therapy
Hypnotherapy
Psych-K
Genome Healing
HypnoBirthing
Prenatal Psychology
Medical Intuition

I was reading every book I could get my hands on about metaphysics, epigenetics and more. I knew there was so much more to this life and I was determined to find the Truth.

I was driven by my determination to heal and to understand how we heal.

I knew that if I got to the root cause I would heal.

During these ten years, I tried plant medicine and I asked to be shown the root cause of Hashimoto's Disease. I was shown that I was afraid of people. That made no sense to me at the time because I was at that point a speaker and selling into my Coaching programs around Australia making half a million dollars at that time.

At the end of those ten years, during the peak of my career success, I burnt out. I had just broken up with my second fiance.

Despite success I was unfulfilled, my health was worse than ever, I still felt awkward socially and around people and my romantic relationships were painful. I realised that despite all the work I had done, I had clearly not gotten to the root cause, and I needed to go within.

I then spent a year in bed recovering. It was here, being forced to stop that I was forced to be with my feelings. I met my inner child and discovered the huge amount of grief she felt along with unworthiness.

For the first time in my life, rather than running from my feelings, I started sitting with them. Facing them. Feeling them.

I started creating space for these wounded parts of me to exist. I stopped judging them and pretending I didn't feel them and I started giving these parts the love that they needed, rather than seeking that externally.

This is where my healing actually began.

Prior to this, I was simply gathering knowledge and tools in my Mind.

Doing all of those modalities, when I had unconscious trauma that was keeping me disconnected from my own body didn't allow me to go beyond the surface in my healing and thus all health, relationship and emotional issues persisted.

As I learnt to work somatically through my body, I discovered the childhood, prenatal, ancestral and past life wounds that were buried and yet at the root of every single issue I was experiencing. It was like layers of an onion. As one dissolved, the next one would appear. I was hungry for that journey.

I eventually, many years later, met the part of me that was afraid of people. This time it wasn't an intellectual insight, but I could feel this part of me. It took great humility and surrender to be able to feel this part of me because I had spent my life putting so much energy into my external mask of being strong and confident as a protective mechanism.

The amount of safety that I had built within my own self from doing Inner Child and parts work, allowed this deeper fearful part to emerge and finally I met the part of me that felt deeply unsafe. This part felt the world was not safe and that people were not safe and this wound stemmed from my lineage and past life history. Here, I learnt how to hold this part of me and to feel safe from within my own body. Transformational.

Many turn to plant medicine in the hope of healing and although it gives insights it was my experience that we cannot heal until we begin working somatically. This leads us to the root cause. To heal we need to feel.

After 7 years of a somatic descent, dissolving the many layers of hurt, pain, trauma and disconnection, I eventually reunited with the Source of all creation...God...Love itself.

God was under all of those layers, patiently waiting for me to open my heart back up so I could feel the love that was there for me the whole time and receive it and then be transformed by it.

All in all, that was a 20 year journey of "seeking".

I didn't know at the time what I was seeking...I. know now it was for myself. I was seeking God. I was seeking my own heart and Soul.

And the only way forward is within.

That journey cannot be done from the mind.

We need to open our heart so wide so that any darkness is dissolved.

This is a journey of purification. Awakening first requires the descent.

Our true self and potential is already within us but there are many layers to dissolve in order to know our true Self.

If you are ready for this journey, I have a special offer for you.

My 3-session Starter Package. Discounted 1on1 sessions and 3 months of my Membership which includes courses on Somatic Healing and Healing at the Level of the Nervous System.

Heal wounds and trauma, embody, heal and open your heart and regulate your nervous system.

More information can be found here: https://www.tamikarose.love/starter-package