Being forced to stop through burn out created the time and space for what I had repressed to begin to surface.

I met my inner child and the tsunami of emotion I had buried under my well-formed mask of being strong and confident and behind my pattern of being the one to always help others. 

I was finally facing the Truth and began to see how the men I were attracting were simply reflecting how I felt about myself, why I was unfulfilled and why I had not healed my body. 

I saw how the personal development industry had formed in me a strong and empowered mind, yet did not touch my shielded heart and the unconscious trauma I had buried in my body. My goal-orientated-success-driven self had me living in my masculine, to my detriment, and as a result, I was ready to heal my heart and awaken my feminine. 

I delved into Inner Child work, Sacred Feminine Arts, Tantra and became qualified in the Art of Feminine Presence. Awakening my feminine felt so good and completely spoke to my soul. I started to feel whole for the first time.

This led to the birth of my next business, Path of the Goddess. I began supporting women in the deeper healing and feminine awakening that I had just experienced. I created the most sacred spaces where they could purge their unhealed emotions and sink their exhausted selves back into the love and safety of their own feminine soul.

Sharing this work unlocked something sacred within my soul, and I yearned to be a vessel for the Divine. 

I believe it was this genuine soul yearning to go deeper and to fully awaken that drew into my life my next Mentors. My life was about to drastically change in a way that I was not prepared for yet was exactly what I had been searching for my entire life. 

I began a womb-awakening pathway of feminine embodiment based in a Christ Consciousness lineage. I had never before met such deeply present and soul-embodied beings. A part of me initially felt uncomfortable in their presence, because I could no longer hide, and yet my soul felt right at home. 

This journey took me around the world to the South of France, Egypt, Turkey and Greece, exploring sacred sites, ancient mysteries and awakening in my soul long-lost memories of a Priestess path that felt like home; the path of the Rose. 

For two years, I worked very closely with my Mentors. During this time, they not only guided me deep into my soul, but they supported me and my partner at the time, through my pregnancy and home water birth. We learnt how to communicate to our son's soul, which allowed us to support him in the way he needed. It was the conscious pregnancy and birth I had dreamed of.

The New Children of the Light are high vibration Master souls. In order to make the journey onto Earth easier for them, it helps if the parents are of a higher vibration and are able to see and support the incoming soul. 

From the beginning, my son made it very clear what he needed. He has a big purpose on Earth, and he wanted support in keeping his level of consciousness, light and soul,  as embodied as possible. 

His Father and I had to radically transform, uplevel and re-organise our priorities in order to ensure we were meeting his needs and giving him the presence he required throughout the pregnancy. My focus shifted away from my work to a more internal space and I began to slow down and become much more present.

Many think that parenting begins at birth, however when we are totally conscious from within our soul during pregnancy, parenting begins the moment you connect to the incoming soul and this usually happens before conception. The relationship begins there.

Approaching pregnancy and birth in this conscious and multidimensional way not only supports the incoming soul in the utmost way, but is a complete activation and awakening into the feminine mysteries. 

My pregnancy and birth was a profound initiation into my feminine soul.

It cracked open my heart and soul in a way that no other course or Teacher could have done. Because of this, Motherhood has been the greatest gift of my life.

I whole-heartedly believe our children come through to expand us, not the other way around. All we need to do is learn to be present, listen and allow. When we can get out of the way, release control and listen, they have so much to teach us. 

During this time, I was taught how to go within, how to access the causal layer and heal the deepest of wounds.

I then continued the journey on my own. The deeper I went in, the more pain I discovered. I uncovered pain from this life, many previous lives, and discovered I was carrying in my womb, a lot of trauma from the sexual and physical abuse in my female ancestral line.  

I learnt how to alchemise the pain into light and back to love, dissolving the density from my cells and soul. My hardened and frozen places softened, and I gradually dissolved my control, defence and protection mechanisms, walls and barriers, and opened my heart. This de-armouring was a gradual process that unfolded in stages and over time and was very much supported by the initiation of Motherhood.

The more I transmuted the emotional energy from within my body the more my symptoms healed.

• I let go of any labels of 'disease' and could see that my body was simply expressing the energy that I had repressed. Every symptom represented a part of me blocking love and was showing me how I felt deep down. 
• My fatigue represented my powerlessness and my feeling of not wanting to be here; a shutting down to life.
• The pain in my kidneys and resulting bladder issues was fear from feeling unsafe (ancestral and past life). 
• The heaviness in my body was the result of living out of alignment to divine will. 
• The pain I felt in my lungs and heart, grief. 
• The abnormal cells on my cervix was ancestral sexual trauma. 
• My ovarian cyst was the blockage to my femininity; living from my excessive masculine as a protection mechanism. 
• My backpain was there until i learnt to support myself emotionally. 
• My digestion was my anxiety and inability to process life.
• My tight right shoulder was the burden of feeling responsible for others. 
• My voice/thyroid challenges, past life and ancestral oppression/abuse/disempowerment.

This process was very much a death process.

As the layers dissolved, who I 'thought' I was, also dissolved. It was a very uncomfortable period of my life, as my safety had previously come from me controlling life. Now, I was being asked to let that go, and totally surrender into the abyss of the unknown in order to come into a deeper level of trust of self and life.

As I dissolved the protection mechanisms, I had no idea who I was or what I wanted, and a feeling of uncertainty emerged in relation to my work and business Path of the Goddess. 

This period of my life was very insular. I pulled right back from socialising and social media and went deep into my cocoon with my soul and my baby. So much was unravelling and dissolving and any part of my life that had been birthed from these false or more outer aspects of self, also had to dissolve. Therefore, the time came when I felt to dissolve Path of the Goddess. This was one of the hardest decisions of my life. It was a decision that I didn't quite understand at the time, yet knew in my soul had to be done. I had to let it all go in order to come fully into my soul. 

After a few years working diligently, and working multidimensionally, I healed a Mother wound, childhood, birth, prenatal, ancestral and a lot of past life wounding.

I integrated my shadow and due to the depths that I ventured into in my scorpio moon way, transmuted many wounds on behalf of the collective as part of my service this lifetime.

Gradually, layer after layer, fragment after fragment, my soul landed in my body. This was pivotal in terms of how I felt.

I felt completely connected to my soul. I felt whole and I felt free to be me. In this embodiment, I also felt completely present, completely here, and simultaneously felt grounded in this world but not of it. It was at this point I could feel the New Earth frequencies and felt how beautiful the future felt.

This was my first sense of coming home. I knew at this point I had to teach this journey, as most courses I had experienced only went surface deep. 

Not only did my body transform, but every single aspect of my life.

As I opened, I opened to life and relationship. My relationships completely transformed. I felt comfortable in my own skin, and started to feel a joy and excitement for life. I was able to view my past through the lens of my soul, seeing the higher purpose to each event and how they served my awakening. A deep peace and gratitude for the beauty and magic of the human experience began to fill my heart. 

The journey within not only led me home to my soul but led me home to love. The love I previously sought, I found within. The ever-present sense of separation I used to feel was replaced with a feeling of connection, and it was here I began to feel the Divine so strongly and so clearly supporting, loving and guiding me in my life. My relationship with Source became very real and ever-present. The fleeting feeling of Oneness that I had experienced 15 years ago, was now a daily reality. I felt I had finally come home and I realised it was what my soul had longed for my entire life. A return to Love; to Source.

My intuitive abilities began increasing and it felt like the end of my healing journey and the start of something quite expansive and joyful. It was a complete rebirth. 

I found fulfilment in my simplified life as a Mother, serving a handful of committed clients, both male and female, and living out my passion as a figure skater. Life flowed with ease and grace and the time came when as Divine Will would have it, it was time for me to serve once again. The Universe had been sending me male clients, and I saw how this feminine Somatic approach of feeling and healing opened their hearts and brought so much needed healing to their souls. So I rebranded into Tamika Rose, keeping the feminine foundations but leaving my work open for men and women.

As I rebirthed myself and my work into the world, I could feel for the first time that everything was in alignment.

The pearls of wisdom I have received after my 20 year healing journey taught me that not only is love who we are, it is the very fabric of existence. 

Our wounds create illusions which keep us separate from this love; and thus trapped in our own suffering and seeking outside of ourselves to fill the void. These wounds are the cause of the very experiences, manifestations and dynamics in our life that we don’t want. From financial, to health, to relationships. As we heal these wounds, we are able to access our true self, transform our 3D life, and live our highest expression, timeline and purpose. It is at this point, that our very being becomes a force of healing in the world. This journey of self-healing and soul embodiment is the ultimate service, in my opinion. 

As Rumi so eloquently said,

“Your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and find all the barriers you have built within yourself against it.” 

 He also said,

“The wound is the place where the light enters you”. 

Those quotes sum up my personal journey, and the work I have to share with those who are committed and ready for this ever-deepening unfurling sacred inner journey home. 

It is truly wonderful to have you here. May my journey be an inspiration into the possibilities and magic that is available when you find the courage to face your wounds and heal yourself. Truly, everything you seek is within and we go without until we go within. There is a life filled with such awe, magic, beauty, abundance and grace awaiting you. All you need to do is say, yes. 

Love Tamika